Thursday, September 26, 2013

Who's Your Daddy?!?

In 1977 everyone around me was talking about the television mini series "Roots".   Roots inspired one of the two 6th grade classes in my elementary school to teach on the very subject and gave the assignment of researching your roots to compile your own family tree - I thanked God that I was not in that particular class.

You see this was not a welcomed topic of conversation in my mama's house.  When I would inquire who my father was and would ask what he was like, my mother's disposition would harden and she would spout off, "You are the bastard of James Kinum." 

Please don't judge my mama harshly as she carried a lot of hurt, pain and was none-too proud of her past.  I have come to understand that this was her coping mechanism and have forgiven her long ago.

The want of a father never left me.  As a kid I would pretend that Robert Urich [movie star] was my father.  In the depths of my imagination I would create different scenarios of why my parents were not together.  Not sure how healthy that was but my pretend family in my head kept me from asking about my real father.

Mama died when I was 16 taking all the information of my father with her to her grave.  I learnt to accept the fact that I was a fatherless child.  I vowed that when I had children they would know who their father was.  I also vowed that if they wanted to know family information I would tell them if I knew and if I didn't know I would try to find it out for them.

Once I started to have grandchildren the wanting to know my "roots" crept to the surface.  I desired to provide a "normal" family tree for my grandchildren.  I was ashamed that when I would create my family tree, there were only leaves on one side of the pitiful tree and that word Bastard would haunt me. 

I had a computer with access to the vast information of the World Wide Web so I dove back in.  However at this time in my life I was not able to give up the money that the ancestry sites required.  I didn't have any friends at that time that (I knew) were into genealogy so I didn't know where to go or what to do.  After a few weeks of hitting the brick wall I pushed the wanting of a family tree to the deep recesses of my mind.  I refused to think about it.

Like most things that we don't deal with, they tend to make their presence known until we do deal with them.  

On and off for thirteen years I would dabble with my family tree.  Two years ago I was listening to my co-worker tell about her passion for genealogy.  As you guessed it, the buried desire for roots came to life.  This time I paid the fees for Ancestry.com and started the search again.  

With the guidance and encouragement of my co-worker/friend, I dove in.  Before I knew it I was finding more and more information in regards to my mama's heritage, being able to take it past what was written in her bible, that was an awesome feeling.

However my tree was still half dead with no leaves on the father's side.  I was finding a James Kinum, but was it the right one?  Long story somewhat shorter, last year, through Ancestry.com, Facebook (and through the grace of God) I was able to confirm that yes indeed I found my James Kinum. I even had the name of his parents.  My tree was starting to grow.

For a year I couldn't get past that point, until the day before yesterday.  A distant relative on the father's side contacted me through Ancestry.com and provided me with 106 pages of information on the Kinum family. 

In a moment, my tree started blossoming into a mid-spring, beautiful, lush, leaf filled tree.  (To God Be ALL the Glory, Amen Amen Amen!)

I know that these are just names on a piece of paper and that I will never get to "know" them.  But those names represent my pedigree.  (My Roots)

As I looked at my tree I started to cry, thanking God that I am no longer a bastard.  God told me, "Child, you have never been a bastard as I am Your Father and I have never left you!" <tears>

Wow, right!?!  That right there is truth.  For all of us with daddy issues not knowing who's our daddy - there is our answer.  ABBA FATHER is our daddy.  He loves us.  He desires us to be His children.  

To God Be ALL the Glory, Amen Amen Amen!

Call on your Father today as He is a prayer away.  Want a closer relationship with your Father go to that book that people write their family history in, the Bible, as your genealogy is right there.  Your history and your future are in one Book.  That is God's love letter to you and He desires you read it, study it and become closer to Him more than anything.

I want to leave you with words that I received this morning from the distant relative who contacted me...Your mother's comments to you remind me of the words of my late pastor: "There is no such thing as illegitimate children, only illegitimate parents!"

Isn't it wonderful that our Father in Heaven is our Legitimate Father?!?!  We never have to search for Him as He is always with us.  AMEN!

Until Next Time, God Bless!!! 

Wednesday, September 18, 2013

From Death to Life

As we acknowledge the death of the person we knew as Joela, we don’t really mourn the loss.  The world really didn’t need one more person who was self centered, egotistical, depressed, lazy and allowed herself to be sick more than she was well.  She carried around her migraines as if they were a Gucci Bag to establish her right to be mediocre.  She lived her life as if there were no one in it but herself.  She ate garbage whether it was food for the body or information for the mind.   

The attention she craved was given to her when she behaved inappropriately, she was too self absorbed to even realize that it was not the kind of attention one should want, crave or receive. 

Her death was a long process.  In early 2002, her friend the Holy Spirit came up to her one day as she was deep, deep, deep in self destruction sin.  He asked her, “Are you done yet?”  Her response was a thoughtful and sincere, “Yes, yes I am.”  She turned herself away from the sexual depravity and the party girl lifestyle.  She still had a long way to go as she may have moved from the neighborhood but the inner house still needed to be exterminated to the very core of her person.  She was infested with demons and didn’t even know it.

One day she called herself to a meeting with the Holy Spirit, she fired herself; put the Holy Spirit in as CEO of her life.  She actually committed suicide right then and there.  She killed herself saying she couldn’t live anymore being Joela.  She couldn’t deal with the world looking at her and seeing her and not the loving God that lived in her.

Today we celebrate as the Holy Spirit has His way in her.  Joela was reborn as the royal child of God, living the way that Christ died for.  The heart that was selfish and self centered turned to live for others.  Her motto became, “I am blessed, not just to say that I am blessed but to BE a Blessing!” 

The depression and sickness became a healthy mind, body and soul that didn’t accept any other way of life.  She has become a vessel for the Lord to fill up to overflowing.  Her excitement for the Lord is extremely contagious for those that need to catch the Believer Bug of God.  Spreading the Gospel as Jesus instructed.   Holy Spirit we thank You for her new life in Christ.  AMEN!!!  A life to truly be remembered.

To God Be ALL the Glory, AMEN AMEN AMEN!

Until Next Time, God Bless!!

Sunday, September 15, 2013

Prayer to Prophet - The Heart of Samuel




This is Today’s Lesson for my 10 years and up…I pray it blesses you.

Before we dive in I want to give you a little background on the Book of 1 Samuel since we won’t be able to cover it all. 

1 Samuel tells the story of Samuel, a priest of Israel, (the last judge) and Saul, Israel’s first king.  It introduces us to David and gives us extensive background on the man who would later succeed Saul as the ruler of God’s people.  Among other things and in the midst of some dramatic stories and adventure, this book reveals the importance of the heart.

In the beginning of   1 Samuel, we see a barren woman with a desperate but pure heart, who prays passionately to God.  God answers with a miracle and gives her Samuel as her son.

Samuel, in turn, served God with a faithful heart as a prophet and a priest of Israel.  He anointed Saul to rule, we see that Saul’s heart was evil, jealous, fearful, and angry.  Against the backdrop of Saul’s wickedness, we see God raising up the future king, David, who is called “a man after God’s own heart!”  (1 Samuel 13:14)  So we know his heart was pure and honorable before the Lord.

1 Samuel 16:7 tells us that “man looks on the outward appearance, but the Lord looks on the heart.”  Determine today - that whatever the Lord see when He looks into your heart - will be pleasing to Him.

Let’s go to the word – 1 Samuel Chapter 1:1-11

We are introduced to Elkanah (el kayn a whose name means God has purchased) and his two wives Peninnah (pee nin a whose name means Precious Stone) and Hannah (Whose name means Favor of God).   Elkanah and Peninnah had children.  Poor Hannah was barren and couldn’t have any children.  As you can imagine this tore at Hannah’s heart.  One of the greatest desires of a woman is to give her husband children.  Her being childless didn’t get in the way of Elkanah loving her very much. 

Each year Elkanah went year by year to The City of Shiloh to worship and give sacrifice to the Lord.  (What is the significance of Shiloh?  After Joshua conquered the Land of Israel, the Ark of the Covenant was placed in the village of Shiloh.  Located in the area settled by the tribes of Benjamin and Ephraim – Shiloh became known as the “place of the Lord’s Tabernacle.”  It was to Shiloh that the Israelites brought their sacrifices.)

When the day came that Elkanah sacrificed, he would give to Peninnah (his wife) and all her children portions of the sacrificial meal.  To his wife Hannah, he gave a double portion as he loved her very much even though she had provided him with no children. 

Hannah was very embarrassed by her situation.  Back in these times, women were judged by how many children they provided to their husbands.  Peninnah held this over Hannah’s head and would provoke her.  This happened year after year.

Can you imagine how awful Hannah must have felt?  First she can’t have children for her husband and his other wife torments her of this.  Every year the same thing go up to the Lord’s house and you are made to feel unworthy.  How awful, right?  Poor Hannah sat down and cried and wouldn’t eat.  Even her husband was unable to console her.

Hannah ends up praying to God and weeping bitterly.  She makes a vow to God that if He would provide her a son, she would give the child to Him.  In this prayer she sets the future child apart for God promising Him that the child would be a Nazarite.

There are two words Nazarite and Nazirite – Combined, these two Hebrew words speak of “being set apart, purified, being made to reflect the glory of God, raised above the norm and given authority over the nation.”

Three categories of Nazirites: 
1.       The first comprised people who out of their own free will set themselves apart for “a season”.  These were temporary Nazirites.
2.      The second category includes those who were made Nazirites by other people like Samuel.  Samuel was made a Nazirite by his mother Hannah.  (1 Samuel 1:29 – She vowed, saying, O Lord of hosts, if you will indeed look on the affliction of Your handmaid and earnestly remember, and not forget Your handmaid but will give me a son, I will give him to the Lord all his life: no razor shall touch his head.)  This was a vow of Nazarite. 
3.      The last category were Nazarites who were chosen by God, not self-chosen or chosen by parents, but chosen by God Himself.  They were born Nazirites and had to live as such all their lives.  Examples of this type of Nazarite are John the Baptist and Samson, whom God set apart- from before they were born.  Much higher discipline was required of such people, and they usually had great impact.

Being set apart for God takes hard work and preparation but I ask you, “What great things in life come easy?”  If it were easy, everyone would be doing it.

Back to the word….1 Samuel 1:12-28 (remainder of chapter 1)

Hannah is sitting there praying.  Praying to herself however her lips are moving.  Eli the priest saw her, thought she was drunk and said as much to her.  Hannah responded that she had not drank any wine or strong drink, I was pouring out my soul before the Lord.  Hannah told Eli not think wicked of her that she was just speaking to God about her complaints and her anger.

Eli tells her to go in peace and may the God of Israel grant your petition which you have asked of Him.  Hannah thanks him by saying let your handmaiden find grace in your sight.  She left Eli to go eat and she was sad no more. 

(She left her burden with God, she left comforted by the blessing from Eli)

Before leaving Shiloh the family gets up early to worship the Lord.  The returned home.  God remembered Hannah and her prayer.  She had a son and named him Samuel (meaning God has heard)

Shortly after the birth of Samuel it is time for the yearly trek to Shiloh for the worship and sacrifice to the Lord.  Hannah tells Elkahah that she is not going to travel until the baby is old enough.  Once he is old enough, she would take Samuel and he will remain with the priests as she vowed to God.  Elkahah says, do what you got to do.

Once Samuel was old enough Hannah gathered (not the husband Elkahah, but Hannah)  the items for the sacrificial burnt offering and took Samuel to the Lord’s house in Shiloh.   After the burnt offering they took Samuel to Eli telling him, that she was that woman that stood by him praying to the Lord.  She told Eli that this is the child I prayed for.  God granted my request.  I promised God that as long as Samuel lives he would be given to the Lord.  Eli and Hannah worshipped the Lord there.

I don’t know about you but, I am blown away by Hannah.  She is barren and has been praying, asking God for a child for YEARS.  Husband doesn't understand her distress.  Husband's other wife who has many children torments her, not caring about Hannah's feelings.  Eli the Priest thinks she is drunk as she cries softly to God.

Yet something about going before God and telling her troubles reminded Hannah about who GOD was.  She EXPECTED Him to look at her, remember her and to give her a son.  She went away contented (1 Sam 1:18).

Hannah's prayers were answered; she conceived and gave birth to a son.  She made a promise to God, dedicating that son to HIM.  When he was about 3 years old she took him to the House of the Lord and gave her son back to Him.

Hannah's 2nd prayer is far different from the pain of her previous prayers.  It is an amazing song of praise for the God whom she views as her Lord over her life.  She doesn't mention the answered prayer.  The entire subject of this prayer is GOD.

Could it be that Hannah learnt what we need to learn?  That it is our God - who makes life complete.  Oh, we yearn for this and ache for that.  We concentrate on our need instead of on God.  It is God who is enough. 

"The Lord" said Hannah, "is a God who knows" (1 Sam 2:3).  No wonder the Bible says over and over (and over again) "WAIT FOR THE LORD!  NOT FOR THE THING YOU WANT, BUT FOR THE LORD!"

Sorry about that I am getting ahead of the story.

1 Sam chapter 2

Verses 1-10 is Hannah praying her prayer of praise to God. 

Verse 11 – Elkanah and Hannah go home and Samuel stays with the priest Eli to minister to the Lord.

Hannah visits Samuel each year and brings him a new robe.  Eli blesses Elkanan and Hannah – prophesying that because Hannah had her prayer for Samuel answered and she kept her vow to give him to the Lord, that the Lord will bless them with more children.  They ended up having 3 more sons and 2 daughters.  

The rest of Chapter 2 speaks of Eli’s sons, Hophni (hof-nee meaning Swordsman)  and Phinehas (fin ee es meaning Serpents Mouth) and how they were wicked, sinful men.  They dishonored God and the house of the Lord.  There is a prophesy against the family (sons) of Eli (meaning defender of men) – how God will strike them down for their disobedience and dishonor of God.  Eli didn’t keep his boys in line, let them do as they pleased, when he did chastise them it was wishy washy…no back bone.  Always defending them… 

(A quick side note regarding Eli and his lack of disciplining his sons – he let them get away with (not only) things that were sinful & wrong, but also blasphemous of God.  Not only was Eli their father but he was also their boss as the priest in the House of the Lord.  By not keeping his boys in check, he not only did a disservice to them as their father but also to the Lord as His priest!

I want you to remember next time your parents discipline you when you do something bad, that I want you to be grateful that they love you so much that they are taking responsibility of being YOUR parent seriously. 

Same goes for your teachers, it is there responsibility to teach you – it is your responsibility to learn what you are being taught.  Don’t let your being a kid – be your excuse of why you don’t behave or hold up your end of the parent/child and teacher/student end of the relationship.)  You get the point, now back to Samuel…

Samuel grew up in the house of the Lord.  He was in favor with God and with Men….

(This tells me that Samuel was a holy and righteous child that not only served God with his works but had God in his heart.  Even though Samuel was in a God Building doesn’t mean that he was surrounded by Godly people giving him proper examples of how to act and behave. 

Eli’s sons were priests by title but they were not godly men at all.  Please remember that is true in the world we live in today.  Just because you go to a Christian School and go to Church doesn’t mean that you are surrounded by people of God….(in our church you are but you understand what I am getting, right?) 

As the sons of Eli “portrayed themselves as holy and righteous priests of the Lord” they were not.  I don’t know about you but I would rather deal with a person who is honest about their not being right with God, than someone pretending to be a Christian.  Being fake about God to me is Blasphemous and  A fake Christian is a Hypocrite.

Hypocrite…A person who masks his/her real self while they play a part for an audience.  The encyclopedia of Bible Words has the following definitions for Hypocrite.

1.       A hypocrite does not act spontaneously from the heart but with calculation, to impress others (Matt 6:1-3)
2.      A hypocrite thinks only of the external trappings of religion, ignoring the central heart issues of love for God and others (Matt 15:1-21)
3.      A hypocrite uses spiritual talk to hide base motives (Matt 22:18-22)

Jesus gives this warning to the hypocrites of every age/era, “Woe to you”  (Matt 23:13, 15, 16, 23, 25, 27, 29)

Even though Samuel grew up surrounded by the likes of Eli’s sons and Eli who condoned his children’s wrong behavior (like a parent not disciplining their children properly – hoping that they would change on their own) – Samuel was a child that devoted his life to God.  (He was filled with God and it overflowed through his life)

I admired Samuel that even though it was his mother who made the Nazirite vow “FOR” him – to dedicate his life to God, he didn’t have an attitude or a rebellious spirit.  Samuel himself obeyed the wishes of his mother and dedicated his life to serving God.  He had a pure heart and “chose” to serve God with his ALL.  That right there just speaks volumes to me!

Let’s get back to the word as this is one of my favorite parts!  1 Sam Chapter 3

This get’s pretty awesome here.  Samuel is still a boy…a kid, no older than you guys.  He is sleeping and God wakes him up by calling his name.  Poor kid thinks it is Eli calling him.  The scene happens three times where God calls out to the boy, “Samuel!” and Samuel gets up and goes to Eli saying, “Here I am, you did call me.”  After the 3rd time Eli realizes that it is actually God calling out to Samuel, so he sends Samuel back to bed and tells the child that if “HE” calls you, you shall say, “Speak Lord, for Your servant is listening.” 

I wonder what ran through little Samuel’s mind at this time or was he so tired that he just went back to bed?  Was he excited?  Was he scared?  Could he even go back to sleep?

If it were me, I would be like, “Whoa!!”, “What do you mean HE?”, “Do you mean God?”, “Is He mad at me?”, “Why would God want to talk to me?”  Or even, “Is Eli messin’ with me?”  I don’t know about you but I would be wide awake until it happened again…or it was time to get up which ever came first. 

After Samuel went to bed (again) God showed back up (or still yet…) and called out, “Samuel, Samuel” and the boy did as Eli the priest had instructed him, “Speak Lord, for Your servant is listening.”

God told Samuel what He planned to do with Eli’s house (meaning his family).  This is the first time that Samuel received a prophetic word from God.  HOW COOL IS THAT?!?!  He was a child hearing the audible voice of GOD.  This is Awesome stuff guys!!!!

Now the next morning Eli was full of curiosity of what the Lord had to say to Samuel.  Now picture this, the priest who is an old man is going to go to the child to find out what God had told him.  Poor little Samuel has this old man asking him to tell him what all God said. And here is Samuel not wanting to tell Eli the bad news that the Lord told him He was going to do with Eli’s sons, Hophni and Phinehas.  Then Eli kind of threatens Samuel to tell him what God said.  So Samuel tells Eli everything that God had told him.  Eli accepted the news and the fate of his family by saying, “God will be God and if that is what God has to do, so be it.”

Samuel grows up and it is known everywhere that Samuel was established to be a prophet of the Lord.  That is the end of Chapter 3 of 1 Samuel. 

Chapter 4 starts off with the Philistines attacking Israel.  The Israelites are scared, thinking God has forgotten them.  Here is where someone came up with the not-so-bright idea of, “Let’s take the Ark of the Covenant into the camp.”  (I want you to stop and picture this…God gave specific instructions on how and where to set up the Ark of the Covenant…this is not some little wrong doing here, this is HUGE!!!) 

The sons of Eli, Hophni and Phinehas carry the Ark of the Covenant out of its dwelling place of the House of the Lord and head to the camp of the Israelites.  At first the Philistines were scared saying “Woe to Us, who shall deliver us from their mighty gods.”

I need to stop here and point out that the Philistines may have known that the Lord brought the Israelites out of Egypt giving them the land of Caanan, but this whole picture that I see is a pagan people still not realizing the true and awesome power of our Lord.  When I read that sentence, they may be scared but they are bringing GOD down to an idol stature.  NOT COOL! 

I am also picturing disobedient Israelites and so-called priests bringing a most sacred shrine from its Holy place to the war zone.  Again, NOT COOL.

Makes one ask who was more of a disgrace in this scene…the heathens that don’t know our God, that weren’t brought up with God, who are ignorant the awesome power and majesty of the One and Only True Living God  - OR – God’s chosen people who know better?!?!?!

Eli’s sons (as prophesied) were slain.  Eli (who is 98 and blind at this point) is sitting by the road trembling for the fate of the Ark of God.  As a man of Benjamin was leaving the battle, he tells the people of the city what was going on.  They all cry out, Eli hears and asks what all the commotion is about.  The man proceeds to tell Eli that the Israelites have major casualties (30,000 people!), Eli’s sons are dead and that the Ark of the Covenant has been captured.  Hearing about the Ark of the Covenant he passes out, falling off his seat backwards breaking his neck and died. 

With that Chapter 4 ends with the death of 30,000 Israelites, death of Eli, his sons and daughter-in-law and the Ark of the Covenant in the hands of the Philistines.  This is where our DVD ends and I just want to go a little further if you don’t mind.

1 Samuel chapter 5 tells about the Ark of God being in the temple of dagon (the fish god) of the Philistines.  As you can imagine, this did not please the Living God!!  Every morning the false god dagon would be knocked over on its face and every morning the priest of dagon would pick it up.  That is until the morning that they saw that the head and palms were broken off leaving just the trunk of this statue.  This scares the Philistines, so they gather the higher ups and decide that the God of Israel is doing this.  Their people are afflicted with terrible boils…  “Ok we got to get rid of this Ark of the God of Israel as He has a heavy hand down upon our people!”  The leaders all agree and send it off to the next Philistine city…(we don’t want this curse you take it)…same scenario takes place, so they move it again….and again.  Bringing chapter 5 of 1 Samuel to a close with God inflicting pain and suffering upon those that had what belonged to HIM and His people the Israelites. 

1 Samuel chapter 6 tells about how the Philistines returned the Arc of the Covenant to the Israelites after it has had a 7 month tour of the Philistine country.  It is rather interesting tale please check it out along with chapter 7 as I need to skip to chapter 8 for the sake of time.

At this time our beloved Samuel is old.  He made his sons judges over Israel, who were corrupt and wicked just like Eli’s sons.  The people don’t want to deal with the crooked judges and would prefer a kind to rule over them, so they go to Samuel and tell him as much.  As you can imagine it deeply displeased Samuel to hear the people want a “human” king to rule over them instead of God.

What a burden on the heart of Samuel and he takes it to God.  (As we all should when something is troubling us – take the burden to God and leave it with Him)

God tells Samuel that the people have not rejected Samuel but of God Himself as their King.  After everything that God has done for them – all the miracles to bring them out of Egypt and into the Promised Land, forsaking Him and serving other (fake) gods, His chosen people turning away from Him again!  God tells Samuel to warn the people what will happen to them if they choose a king to rule over their lives.  (Basically a king will be taking away everything that they cherish.)  Samuel tells them that when this happens and you cry out to God, He will not hear you!  Never the less, they chose having a king over God.

We have to stop here, but basically I want you to know that Samuel had a heart for God.  I believe before he was born, with the prayer of the pure heart of his mother Hannah that when she gave birth to him, he was born with a pure heart for God.  Then as a boy he was taught by his mother and the priest Eli, to love and serve the Lord with all of your heart, soul and being.  He did just that.  He talked to God daily.  He loved God with every fiber of his being.  He was a prophet of the Lord and he ends up anointing 2 kings in his lifetime.  Those kings will be Saul (meaning asked for or prayed for) and David (meaning beloved) which we will get into more next time. 

Everyday principals that you can implement into your daily lives:
1.       Have a pure heart (Like Hannah and Samuel)
2.      Keeping your word (not only to God) but to everyone
3.      Cheaters and thieves don’t get far with God
4.     Never be Blasphemous to our Lord, EVER! 
5.      Never worship anyone/anything but OUR LORD!
6.     Living for God may be hard work but the blessings are huge
7.      Discipline is for our own good, love and appreciate parents when they do discipline you
8.     Don’t take things for granted

To God Be ALL the Glory, AMEN AMEN AMEN!

Until Next Time, God Bless!